Monday, April 21, 2008

reflection.

Some might say that I've not been my usual self lately. I guess this could be due to the fact that I took the mirror off my wall, and forgot to ask God each day to make me new. I think I fell back into being someone that I don't like.

Yeah. So I'm kind of, like, wallowing in self-pity or something...
But please understand how much I love melodrama:


My mother gave me a scale, which gives me the good fortune of knowing that I'm 20lbs heavier than I was this time last year. No joke.


Despite that, I've come to the realization that I got "dumped" last semester because this guy didn't like my personality. Which is... awesome.


I read some 2 year old emails the other night. I realized what a raving lunatic (stronger language desperately needed) I was to someone.
I couldn't have possibly been more insulting. And so needlessly.
So much so that if I have a soul, I will start crying the next time I see him.
I don't know how this guy could ever believe that I'm truly sorry.


I caught the bouquet at Dave and Tanya Gordon's wedding the other night. It helped that I was one of 3 single women left standing there.
On that note, I had asked almost every available guy that I feel close to to be my "date". They all turned me down! Every one of them.


:edit::Did I forget to mention that I have been lied to more times this past month than I had ever hoped to be?
Did I forget to mention that every instance of untruth was brought forth by card-carrying Christians?



FINAL EXAMS!!!!!

2 comments:

Shaunna Faye said...

I've gained about 30 pounds in the past year and a half to two years. It's ridiculous.

bemyescape said...

well, my "date" didn't ride with us, didn't sit with me, and left early. pat left early too, so there went ashley's "date". i knew it would be like a bunch of friends hanging out anyway. and i was right! guys hate weddings. that's all there is to it.